I have been occupied, spring is coming.

So I haven't posted for almost a month, don't get me wrong I have been doing stuff, I just haven't really had much to say about what I was doing.
I have been learning a new craft, Jewelry making.  My sister gave me some supplies that she wasn't using and suggested I could sell stuff on Etsy.  So I have my shop set up, biz cards printed up and maybe 5 or 6 pieces made.
I am almost ready for the next push to this endeavor, posting and paying.  To me that is the hardest part.  I am paralyzed by my fear of success, NOT failure. I know how to fail, it is easy you just do nothing.  But success, once you do good everyone expect you to keep going and pushing and be an over achiever, I just like to make stuff.  On a positive note, I  have already sold 3 things not online.  I sold 2 bracelets and a charm, I made 40.00 which was a big surprise.
It is funny I never really wanted to try jewelry making, it takes alot of supplies and money. Both of these things I don't have.  When my sister brought over the stuff I wasn't sure. She kept saying "if you don't want it I can take it back", It has turned out good.  She is helping with the supplies part, and now  I did such a good job she wants me to teach her what I know. I am really flattered by that, it makes me feel good to feel supported by family in my artistic endeavors.  My mom always said you have to have a good job to fall back on.  I have so many different skills I could fall over, but it doesn't matter because I stay at home and am my dad's caregiver.
So now the skills I am trying to fall back on are my artistic abilities, it is just hard to get those old negetive messages out the old brain.  Well it doesn't help that I never have really shared what I can do with other people because I never thought others would think it had value.  That is a hard lesson to learn, confidence in yourself enough to go make money based just on how you see the world and the courage to change the way the people in your life have always seen you.  It is a tall order, but with my dads support and my sisters encouragement I will get my act together and post it on Etsy.