So what now?

So my last post was a little "oh, feeling sorry for myself.  Its was Easter and no family stuff to do."
Today's post is not about that.  Sure I do feel that way sometimes.  I think everyone does.  I can't really complain to my dad, he will want to fix it and their is nothing really wrong.  I am a girl complaining about situations is what I do.  The official term is "VENTING".  Yeah I could call up a good friend and do that but instead I choice to put it out into the universe of the blog cause I just wanted to "VENT".  No response or resolution is required.

Today it is a beautiful day.  The sun is warm and shining and even the air is warm.  Spring may have finally sprung. 

Just as I will be springing off to goodwill yet again.  I never thought I could get tired of good will.  Pop likes to go for exercise and we go about 3x a week.  It is a good thing we live in an area where there are 3 to choose from.

So till later.

What really matters.

I have always believed that family always came first and should matter more than your friends.  I don’t believe that any more.  I come from a large family and everyone has gone their separate ways and done their separate things.  I believed that we would all come back together.  We have not.  Some of us have but most have not.  The reasons are vast and dysfunctional as most families today.  Some siblings are dead, some are mad at me for things I don’t even know what, some are in another state.

Please don’t miss understand, I do have relationships with some of my siblings, but still what I had as a family unit growing up is not what I have now. 

Growing up the house was full, I am one of 7.  There was always some one doing something or going somewhere or playing jokes on someone. 

Now it is really quiet.  It is just me and my step dad every day.  When I was young I thought my life would be full of kids, family, noise, mess and that that was what loving each other was all about being in each others lives and sharing.  I have learned that from my  good friends Lettie and Cassandra.

As tomorrow is Easter, I have reflected on my situation and I have since had a revelation,  Life is like a school dance.  Everyone attends but not everyone wants to be there or participate.   Well I want to participate.  Hell I want to dance all night long and for as long as I can.  Like all dances there are rules of etiquette. 

The rules are simple.

 

Be willing